This last week has been a week full of adventures and moments of repentence. To all those that have been worrying, praying, thinking, and fasting for me, thank you. I have truly felt the love and help this week. The week began with me not feeling well. I was homesick, sad, and really just wanted to give up. Problem number one was that I had no where to go to give up. Staying in the mission seemed terrible and going home not to enjoyable as well. So was kinda just sad. Missing home and how I was about a year ago in the mission or any other time but in the moment. I began to ask for help. First from my mission President and then from a few Elders that I knew from other areas that are now in my Zone. A few days went by and I started to feel better. Talking and getting out my thoughts and feelings was working and trying to be obedient as well.
Wednesday I ended up traveling to Comodoro. We took a six hour bus ride and got there in the night. That day was able to talk with my ex companion Elder Walker and a lot of friends I have made here in the mission. They updated me on how my old areas were and everyone is doing well. That helped me feel happy. Our convert from Trelew is going to go to the temple to do baptisms this September. Things like that help a missionary feel good. Thursday I spoke in a leadershiop meeting to all the Zone Leaders and Sister Training Leaders about obedience. I almost cried and made a lot of other missionaries cry. That wasnt fun, but I got through it. I talked to President Salerno my missiona president and he convinced me to stay in the mission. We made a plan that I will try and keep going. That the Lord has promised me blessings, and if I do what I am supposed to do He will bless me. The goal is to repend, change, and be the man that I and God hope and wish that I become in these next five months in the mission.
When I got back to my area in Puerto Madryn we started working hard. We put baptismal dates and brought people to church. We found new investigators and taught like crazy. All the work made me feel good. I was not as sad and I started to feel happy. I have begun to change. As it is still hard and I still miss home, I have made progress. There are still things I can not fix and I wish I could. I will continue to have patience and love God. My trust is in His hands, all I want to do is change myself. I know i will.
We are going to have a baptism in two weeks and three more in three weeks. I know it and I know that we can all change. I know that the Atonement of Chirst is real. I can feel it. I know it cause I am living it. I am trying to change. We only have to show faith and try and Christ helps us out. Yes we make mistakes, yes will might feel like we are the worst, but I know that that is only Satan trying to get us down. Expel him from your thoughts and your actions will change. I know it! I know the Book of Mormon is true. It is giving me power to change and repent. It is teaching me how to be a better person. It is teaching me the truths of our Heavenly Father and what we all must do to return with Him again. For I know I am His son, I know He loves me. I am not a father but I can imagine the love that one must have for his children. He loves us I know it. When times get tough and we want to quit what should we do? Satan tells me to quit, and everything else I have learned in my life tells me to suck it up, and keep going. When I hit a bad shot it golf do I dwell on that shot for the rest of the round? NO, we have to forget our faults, sins, and bad shots we have made, and we need we HAVE to remember what we have done well and improve and keep doing those things well. Repent and change. Do it. I am trying. You should too. Read and pray and go to church and see the difference those three things make in your life. I promise you that you will feel Gods love and come to a knowledge that He lives and that His son is running His church on this Earth today. For I know this things are true.I love you all and know you love me. I can feel your support and thank you for it. Les Quiero mucho!
Elder Saunders del fin del mundo:)
See it. Feel it. Trust it.